Perfectly Imperfect

I have ever struggling to love myself. I feel the changes that happen during puberty. In my mind, I often feel confused about little things that I’ve never thought about before, about new emotions that I’ve never experienced, and about how changing my looks. I also feel anxious about the future.

Things don’t always go well, as I planned. At that time, the rubber hits the road. I feel even more rejected, inadequate, and insufficient when I mess something up.

I’m not perfect. I hurt people. But I was angry with myself for not being able to love myself unconditionally, for the mistake I’ve ever made, for not being able to control all my emotions, or simply for my pimples that keep growing every day if I eat something wrong, when periods are coming, or when drinking too much milk (it becomes susceptible, lol).

Later, I realized that understanding my faults, accepting them while trying to fix them, and being comfortable with my perfect imperfection is the main part of growing up. I realized that it takes time to recognize mistakes and fix them. Also, real skin has texture, pores, and even the occasional blemish.

It felt really nice to understand about how I feel and know exactly how to deal with it, instead of ignore and continue to act in the same way.

Now I love me, I love me for who I am, I love my textured skin, I love my pimples, I love my dark circle, I love my energy, I love my imperfection, I love me for being me.

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